Hi guys,
I wanted to talk to you today about what's going on in my head, even though I haven't written on this blog in a while.
It's been 13 years now since, full of hope and disappointed by a love story that I thought would not, I decided to leave for the adventure of life: Erasmus. I applied to my university and came in as a third candidate. When they called me to choose the final destination among the 3 possible ones indicated by me: Denmark-Aarhus, Austria-Vienna, Madrid-Spain; the choice was quite easy.
On 27th July 2006 I collected my little things and left for my Erasmus year. I spent 12 wonderful months in Aarhus in which I improved my English but most of all I met wonderful people, I was able in that context to savor the cultural differences with people who came from all over the world: Canada, United States, Africa, Indonesia , China, Japan, Iceland, Australia, Brazil and even Europe ... The most solid friendships, still existing today, are still the lifeblood of my life
When I arrived I was a little fearful and scared, shy like today but with less awareness. Slowly I met my peers and not, I had experiences of university parties, I was able to experience how to study at a university other than the one you come from but most of all I experienced who I really am; it was perhaps the only moment in my life when I was 100% myself. Unlike Italy, I was well accepted for who I was, I didn't have to hide or change my way of doing things and relating to others just to be accepted, and I often wondered why this difference.
< p> Well today I think I have the answer: Italy has many positive aspects as it is a beautiful nation with so many treasures but unfortunately if you live there you cannot be yourself, never and the events that gradually follow one another in this beautiful country proves it.If you are not part of a system that accepts falsehoods, recommendations, hustlers, political acquaintances, preferential social classes, patriarchy, ... life is complicated.
If you are different from what is considered normal or heterosexuality, skin color, way of thinking you are avoided like the plague even if you hide behind the façade of doing good "Italians are not racists". Well it's not true, maybe they are not all but even those who are not 'if they expressed their opinion contrary to that of the others would be in some way accused for ... This means that there is a fake goodness.
Italians are not able to listen and those who do are considered a person not to hang out with.
If you always say what you think or do not behave like the crowd, you are considered in 2 ways: "crazy" or "unmanageable" and of both subjects people are afraid because if you have nothing to hide it is not possible you can be manipulated so that what you can lose by dating a person like you is greater than what you can earn from you. Then the answer is to ignore the human being.
From 2007 to today the situation has even worsened, kids who "my woman", "you have to do what I say" or who feel strong in pack and perpetrate violence around just because bullying is considered cool on the web as well as violence in general (in fact no one would help someone in trouble but they prefer to shoot the story on istagram or put the video on the internet). Culture is practically non-existent despite the amount of graduates present. If you are killed or raped "you asked for it" or "we must understand they are boys" or even "it is the fault of the dead or the raped because he was a certain type of person or he posed himself in a certain way or even worse he dressed in a certain way "or" it's your fault because you got divorced or left someone ".
I don't like this world but I'm forced to live in it and like me many other people ... I don't have the hope that something will improve (the state and all the institutions, the economic powers are doing everything to barbarize the people because it's easier to control and manipulate).
Passwords for living in this world:
-economic power ,
-patriarchy;
-falsity;
-submission
-violence
-social isolation .
I don't know what you think but a nice picture doesn't come out ... Wherever you tolerate all this is a society you can escape from, not live in ...
