If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
If you can think-and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings-nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And-which is more-you'll be a Man, my son!
(Kipling Rudyard)
This is the blog of my life,for all my friend that i meet in my life...It will contain my trips ,my days,my friends and my life.It is born because some of my friend didn't understand very well my italian blog.So this is just a blog in which i put the contents of my ex blog translated in English and of course new adventures...Enjoy
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11.3.20
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12.1.20
My rebellion is my lifeblood
Hello guys,
tonight in the place should be my home or at least I should consider it, I felt out of place.
It has been evident more than ever that it is a place to which I do not belong, to which, perhaps, I never belonged.
My family is as far away from me as possible in the world and I don't know why. They never understood why I behaved in one way rather than another. It is as if every time I need bread they give me water. They know little or nothing about my past because I am not a person who confides in others but they have never seen in my way of behaving a person who has lived something that did not deserve to live. They immediately responded to my rebellion for bullying in the wrong way and never understood. All of them, nobody excluded, would like me different from who I am and they don't even know who I am. They never really knew me, they don't understand what I say, They can't. I am probably not able to explain so well or my way to explain things is not good but it is no matters.
I don't know how I managed to overcome all my messes, psychologically speaking, alone and while others were unintentionally inflicted but now I have the complete picture. All my life I have been told what I was not, what I am unable to do and how useless I was as a human being; I felt humiliated by those I loved most without blinking; I made myself involved so much and I gave so much importance to people who never understood me that I myself came to believe that I was unable to do anything, to be an incapable and useless person at all.
Over the years I have had the financial support of my family, a roof over my head, a warm place to live, to eat, to drink and anything materially necessary for life and I am extremely grateful for this. I thank every day but what good is it to have something if you are not really seen, if nobody notices when you are psychologically in pieces.
We live or have lived in a world where only the career counts for those lucky enough to have one, where only working to survive matters. We work so hard to try to give our children and family the best we don't know our children and our family, so much that we get stressed so much from work that we can't even enjoy a lunch or dinner, so much that a conversation that touches the wrong keys makes us become aggressive, so much that we get sick to make up for anxieties and nervousness that push us to think too often and often in a negative way.
We live so taken by futile and material things, by the cult of beauty and having, of perfection that if we leave something out of place or if we don't do something in the way we judge perfect for us, everything becomes an insurmountable problem that we must remedy. we can no longer say "I am tired, I will think of this tomorrow" but only "I have to solve this thing now so I take the thought away".
Personally I think all of this is wrong. That one person, whoever he may be, allows himself to make fun of another, even if only in a bugged mental attempt to encourage change or react, he is wrong.
I think nobody deserves to feel a lifetime for nothing and end up believing it.
Although I have not seen them so far and despite everything I have achieved many goals in my life, goals that many others have not been able to achieve although they were not exactly what I wanted to achieve. I will always be missing in something, I am human but I am happy with who I am and if those around me, my dearest affections do not understand me and will never have the skills to do it patiently.
I have to go on without needing them to approve or understand me. I must go on now more than ever and continue to do what I do best: love others more than I love myself, study and travel as much as I can without limits and barriers so that I can finally find my place in the world without necessarily having the approvals or the loves that I seek and that I have been looking for all my life.
Goodnight
Mary
7.12.19
I don't like the society where i live sometimes
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Today I will try to talk about myself for the first time in many years. I spent my whole life covering my fragility in the world and my family so as not to have to give sorrows, to create a strong mask that would defend me from the world. The truth is only one: I do not like the current society in which I live, I do not like how we should act in order to arrive at a result and who you should become in order to be considered someone. Our society does not appreciate real and loyal people as much as it wants to make them believe they despise it and if it could crush them, it often does. A person becomes "a beautiful person" only after his disappearance and this is neither fair nor fair for a human being. It is true that I find it difficult to find my place in the world and I will always have it because "I do not want to become what society wants me to be", I do not want to compromise nor to accept facilities from anyone because it would make me feel obliged . I want to be who I am and I don't want to apologize to myself for being someone I don't like.
Good night guys... Have a nice day
Good night guys... Have a nice day
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6.12.19
Welcome back
Hi boys and girl...
finally I am back after some years. I decided to restart this blog, also if maybe it is not so interesting for anybody, to share my real life with you from the beginning. The idea is to create a space where anybody can ask me what want to know about me and I'll do the possible.
Let's start from today.
I am Mary and This was not so the best day for me. Some year ago i decided to restart my engineering studies and now i am three exams till the end so I would study today but I didn't. It is not a good period for me but I try everyday to smile and to go on better as possibile. Anyone have to do in this way. Life is one and we have one shot to live it so Live it better is possible.
Have a good night guys
I love you
Kisses
finally I am back after some years. I decided to restart this blog, also if maybe it is not so interesting for anybody, to share my real life with you from the beginning. The idea is to create a space where anybody can ask me what want to know about me and I'll do the possible.
Let's start from today.
I am Mary and This was not so the best day for me. Some year ago i decided to restart my engineering studies and now i am three exams till the end so I would study today but I didn't. It is not a good period for me but I try everyday to smile and to go on better as possibile. Anyone have to do in this way. Life is one and we have one shot to live it so Live it better is possible.
Have a good night guys
I love you
Kisses

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